Look what the cat dragged in... ThatgirlJamika! It's been too long since my last post and I sincerly apologize. However I must say my hiatus was not in vain and I do have a plethora of new style pics and fashion tips to share. My goal is to post at minium twice a month and go from there. I miss blogging on the regular. I use my website as a platform to express who I am. I love being me and enjoy sharing my style, poetry and everything that makes me, Jamika B.!
My aniexty issues begin to grow out of control and developed into other "disorders." I never realized how much withdrawn I became socially until the fear of being alone kicked in. The fear of pushing everyone away to the point of no return. The fear of writing a blog post because I was so insecure about myself that I didn't want my depression to show. The lack of inspiration to create and the fear of that creativity never returning. Once I began to realize the tight grip that fear had on my life, I immediately knew things were going to have to change and change soon.
I decided to invest in me. I decided I was not going to live in fear. I decided on a plan to self recovery. So what did I do? I read and I wrote everyday. I read books (which I will share later) that feed me spiritually and mentally. I wrote in several journals, each for seperate purposes. The one I am proud of the most is my, "365 Days of Gratitude" journal. I write in this journal at least 5 days a week. Each entry I write a paragraph or more on what I am gratiful for on that day, in that moment. Then on the next blank page I write my current short term goals. I like to focus on no more than 3 goals at a time. I do not want to overwhelm myself and begin to doubt in my success. After goals are set, underneath I write 20 ways to improve myself to obtain my listed goals. This is what you call brain exercises. I had to mentally strength myself in order to move past my fears that lead to my anxiety issues.